Holiday Funk

I am in a funk or a bad mood or just being cranky or maybe just getting more mean in my old age. I have been venting in my head all morning and I will probably erase this post later but for now I just need to get all this stuff that has been rolling around in my head out! I lost my wallet.I know its not the end of the world. I shouldn't get mad or sad or angry about it, but its just so sad that I can lose it in a 50 foot area( the parking lot of my apartment complex to my front door) and not have anyone turn it in or just leave it on my door --take all $30, the two gift cards to nordstrom and the faboulous freddy's car washes, I don't care!I just want my temple reccomend back( its in the sleeve my parents gave me when I first went through the temple 7 1/2 years ago), and Owen's insurance card (Blue Cross Blue Shield are being stupid about a new one) I feel like its a violation of privacy and I know someone will just throw it away ( Brett has already dumpster dived for me bless his heart) It was a great wallet too and I had paid too much for it but its little strap and all its compartments were so handy when I was trying to carry Owen and fifteen other things. I have a few other things to say, I miss my family, I wish all my sister's lived closer, they are amazing and I miss them alot. I miss my parents, they still live close, but I took my mom to the airport this morning and she sat in the back with Owen(who loves his munca soo much) and I started to think about them leaving for their mission and how much I already miss them and how am I going to deal with them being gone for 3 years? I miss working with my Dad and seeing him daily, I miss my job at the dental office and feeling productive and like I am contributing to my little family. I miss my husband, he works a ton has finals that last forever (the national board exam on monday lasted 5 hours!)and I wish I cooked better for his sake. I miss my friends at work they were such good people and the working at DII made me appreciate them even more. I miss my clothes and feeling pretty I am still not anywhere close to my pre-pregnancy weight and I am beyond frustrated. My sister told me Coons girls are seriously like work horses we aren't the dainty kind and I appreciate that but man what I wouldn't give to be back to how I was and then not be as hard on myself as I was. I have never been thin but I was strong and on the leaner side. I wish I had been smarter about working out more and eating less during pregnancy---its my own fault , its just frustrating to see other ladies bounce back soooo quick and I am jealous. Ok I think I feel better now ---My Owen is 9months old today he is my sunshine. I can't believe it time has flown by. Thanks for letting me vent, I have stopped crying now.